Let's dance to Joy Division and celebrate the irony!

Do you ever get the feeling you ran the wrong way?
You backed the wrong horse?
You took the option that was perhaps more dangerous and unstable?

...That's me in a nutshell. My life story.

I ran the wrong way the other day, I ran fast and far. I didn't turn around once to see what I was potentially getting myself into. The excitement of possibilities was all too overwhelming for me to consider that maybe this would be the the wrong way to run. On the home stretch I began to doubt myself and my instincts. Why did I choose to go this angle? Because I wanted to do it on my own terms.

But who doesn't love a story that ends with the underdog winning? I like to choose the abstract path, the path that offers no serious support or definite outcome because I like the excitement of not knowing where it will lead me.

I'm worried that leaving the security of school will mean that perhaps I may have to take these options and decisions more seriously and instead of choosing spontaneous offers I may have to take time and analyse what I truly want to achieve from these decisions.

I happen to like running the wrong way.

PL x

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